im movin... movin forward.

i have been thinking a lot lately about the friends that i have and the people that i hold closest to my heart. a lot of people only see the crazy, sarcastic me... but the people that have seen past that, there's a reason for that.

i trusted you.

i have been thinking about the people in the past that i have deeply trusted and laid it all out on the line, and wound up hurt. yet i trust again. i push past the pain and put my heart back out there. i (or we, rather) long to be understood. we crave those few close friends that know what we feel.

i have been reflecting a lot about who i used to trust. maybe the ties we had weren't severed, they simply just disappeared over time. yet i had poured so much energy into those friendships. how did i just let them slip away?

everyone comes into our lives for seasons. i am grateful for the few that have been with me through the many chapters. but that doesn't mean i dont long for the friends and mentors i once had.

should i have to fight to be a part of someones life? i dont really think so... if the relationship is worth having, shouldn't there be a mutual understanding that each person does their part? i wonder where the people are that i thought were so important back then. moved on... im sure. yet i still think about whether i left an imprint on their lives.

i hope i did. yet i dont long to go back. i wish i had put the sarcasm behind me sooner and breathed life and dreams instead of laughter that is forgettable.

no turning back... im moving forward.