you know you need to.

"once you have truly experienced god, you can never be the same again".

on this dull saturday night, i am wrestling with this thought. one thing that really gets me so ticked off at satan is watching people that i honestly love and care about and see their potential, and yet... they are stuck. stuck in some sort of rut. stuck spending time with people who bring them down. stuck with thinking that settling is ok.

it's
not.

it's not ok and you know it. it's not ok because somewhere in the back of your mind, you know you need god. you know that your life isn't your own. you know that the things you do, think, speek... it's garbage.

so, why... why the heck are you not moving forward? why have you given up? at what point did you stop fighting? when did you stop listening to your beloved?

i hate it. i hate that you are unhappy. i hate that you are ignoring god's call on your life.

god never said this fight would be easy. but, freaking pick yourself up and fight. it's the least you can do...